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6/18/2014

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    Last night it was hard to sleep, but for once it wasn't from the pain.  For the past three months, my back/neck has kept me up nightly from herniated disks.
    After a series of visits to the doctor, x-rays, pain meds, steroids, physical therapy and an MRI, a neurosurgeon decided that it was time.
    Today he'll go through the front of my neck - and from what I can understand - remove a couple of cervical disks, put something in their place, then use titanium plates to lock the vertebrae together.  The irony is that evidently after the surgery, there won't be pain in the back of my neck anymore, it will be in the front from being open and worked through during the procedure.
    I'm ready for it to be over.  It's to the point that my left thumb, first and middle fingers are almost always numb - and I figure that can't be a good thing.  
    As much as I want to have everything fixed though, I really, really don't want to have surgery.  I don't know anybody who does.  
    My friends at work were amazing yesterday and we had a big breakfast.  They put together my favorite things and had them in a basket.  One of my funniest co-workers gave me a hug and said, "I love you hon.  Don't die."
    It was good comic relief, but that's pretty much what it comes down to.  We see complications from surgery in our job as therapists.  Blood clots, oxygen deprivation, stroke...it kind of gives a whole new meaning to, "ignorance is bliss".  
    My head tells me that nothing will go wrong.  I have the best surgeon, most phenomenal hospital and the greatest staff.  I know this.  That little voice inside is what haunts you though.  The one that sends the paralyzing fear of something going wrong.  The one that makes you not just kiss your children on the head, but smell their hair and take them in, never wanting to let them go.  That voice that has you take your husband's hand just because.
     It's that voice that I'm trying to push away this morning before surgery.  It's the voice I can't listen to.
     My girlfriends Marti and Stacy showed up during my lunch yesterday and we had some friends from work gather round too.  We said a prayer which really helped.  Marti asked for a blanket of peace and protection.  That expression stuck with me and I'll continue to pray for that today too.
      They say that when I wake up, the pain and numbness will be gone.  I can't even imagine how wonderful that would be.  I would like to say that it's a good wake up call to appreciate life and all that is in it.  The thing that stinks, is I don't need it.   I already know to be thankful for the amazing family and friends that God puts into your life.  I'm thankful everyday. 
     For whatever reason though, I have to go through this and it will be good to get it taken care of.  
     I'll write as soon as I can and be so happy to be pain free when I do.  It's going to be a fun few days but hopefully worth it in the end.  
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16 Comments
Sherie Siverling
6/17/2014 10:54:14 pm

Keeping you in our prayers today - love you!!

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Leonard Critcher
6/18/2014 01:53:05 am

Love you, sweet Goddaughter and thinking of you constantly!

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teresa
6/18/2014 02:06:27 am

Love you Beatty thoughts and prayers all will go well and you will be good as new!!

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Penny
6/18/2014 02:10:24 am

I haven't read any of your posts lately, but this one caught my eye. Hopefully by now you are through with surgery and are recovering smoothly. Prayers for your recovery, Beatty!

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Chris Kurz
6/18/2014 02:23:35 am

Thinking of you Bea Bop! Thoughts and prayers from Ohio!

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Julie Lowthorpe
6/18/2014 02:28:09 am

Our thoughts are with ya. And u know if u need anything we are less than two minutes away

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Kristie Gatto
6/18/2014 02:30:08 am

Beautiful Bea... I pray that your recovery is as quick and peaceful as the time it takes for your kids to destroy the basement. :). All my love!!!! Krit

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Sharon
6/18/2014 02:42:04 am

Love you Bee!! Xoxox

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Bertha Dusenberry link
6/18/2014 03:30:43 am

We will be thinking of you,praying for you....Love you Bea xoxo

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Letha Conner
6/18/2014 04:33:09 am

Prayers for you and yours!

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Marcia & Eddie Van Bibber
6/18/2014 06:49:36 am

Beatty, So sorry you have had to go through the pain these past months and that you had to have surgery. We pray that you will recover quickly and become pain-free. Please keep us posted, because we CARE

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Sandy
6/18/2014 06:50:19 am

Maybe Adam will let us all know what the results are? Know that you are loved today & everyday. Hope Adam's ankle is mostly well, too!

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mary leigh inscoe /george Stainback
6/18/2014 07:51:44 am

We are praying for you. Thanks for your kindness and persistent to him. Hang in there.

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Cara Sevensky
6/18/2014 10:52:10 am

Love you and praying for a speedy recovery. Xoxo

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Ashley J :)
6/18/2014 12:16:12 pm

Praying for your recovery!

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Tera
6/18/2014 09:41:42 pm

"Blanket of Peace" - LOVE it because HE gives it... He has one covering your entire family girl!

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